No Sense in Waiting LP 2005	quiet release mp3 in pictures stop running keep repeating like fading stars here is hoping mp3 august hi riser you don't belong turn on your own no sense in waiting

produced by cerulean with david newton
engineered and mixed by david newton
recorded and mixed at rollercoaster recording, burbank, ca
mastered by mark chalecki at capitol mastering
sleeve and logos by puzzlepiece

quiet release

all the stars fall for me quietly
they’d speak but don’t remember my name
on the street, whispering politely
it’s undignified to scream at close range

but you never change your mind
and I am still waiting outside when you wake up
deciding to make up just why your behavior is so
just to let go

that silent face you’re coming into lately
so beautiful if not out of place
sky this low could swallow me completely
I could disappear and not leave a trace

but you never change your mind
and I am still waiting outside when you wake up
deciding to make up just why your behavior is so
and I’ll despise this mistake of deciding to make up
just why your behavior is so
just to let go

in pictures

after it all
your window still faces the wall
nothing could prepare you for this
your pixels and pain coexist

we’re so young
in pictures of places we’ve gone
in pictures, our faces so young
these pictures have missed
that nothing we say, nothing we do changes

I wasn’t sure
it looked like a face on the floor
shots out-of-frame, no resist
we’re fractured as payment for this

faces follow you home
faces follow in pictures of places we’ve gone
in pictures our faces so young
these picture still miss
that nothing we say, nothing we do changes this

I know, you know
no one should know
I know, you know
they won’t understand

stop running

Stop running, you’re allowed to breathe

Putting shocks on the pagers
and winding the cables and wires
Trimming down for a way just to change
all the brains into drives

Stop running, you’re allowed to breathe

We are hopelessly dated
Reminded, upgraded, rewired
If you don’t stay here you’ll be left behind
‘til you’ve made up your mind

Putting stops on the papers
Unwinding the fables and lies
Shutting down for a day
Just a way of remaining inside

Stop running, you’re allowed to breathe

keep repeating

in the end, I’ll mend
we can pretend we’re friends
I’ll send you all of the best intentions
that you won’t mention

still I bend my bones just turning,
upending stones through dust
swallow, can you remember
what you don’t know?

did it almost drag you down
‘til the fear inside was gone
when the fear was somehow keeping you alive?
did it always keep repeating feeling the same things only seconds later
still dragging you along?

in a sun like sandpaper
you stand alone like glass
patient, you wait as long as
you think you need

‘til you bend your bones just turning,
upending stones through dust
swallow, can you remember
what you don’t know?

like fading stars

Holding out on the edge of silence
Keeping all of the evidence on file
Light a flame, say a prayer on Sunday
You deny all the praises when you lie
Don’t ever fear what you find

When you fade like the stars
And all the faces are scars
And all the ways have been barred to keep you in
You’re gonna fake it all when you lie

Make a sign, make a sense of breathing
Any movement to trigger this machine
Shiverlips in a smile so distant
Any life is a change from what we’ve seen
Isn’t it the fear you defied?

So you take your time, even though its mine
And you say that’s fine, that I won’t mind
Why is this?
But you’re always late, it’s not the wait
It’s the face you make I’ll always hate
Why is this?

here is hoping

Here is hoping you keep holding your tongue
Do you even know it could save us all?
But even I suppose if ever this gets close
Your perforated lips will let it go

It doesn’t matter that you tried
It doesn’t matter that you made this all go
Do you ever understand?
That all you ever did was bait us in waiting

Here is hoping you get tired of yourself
And all your ever-know, it won’t save us all
A twisted incest-ghost, you’ll never get this close
Your perforated lips will let it go

Look up and see you’re all alone


august

please, I’m giving this one day
to see if there’s some way
We’ll ever get to stay in each other’s sun
when every delay threatens and betrays
to settle in the cracks and dividing zones

in this August sun, every day will just fade into one
you’ve only just begun, son

please, if making up your mind has only wasted time
then leaving you behind is the only way
when every day past could be the first and last
you won’t even remember a thing we’ve said

in this August sun, every day will just fade into one
you’ve only just begun, son

it’s not like you’ve grown

hi-riser

I think we’re tired of the same things, you told me
the main thing is swallowing the pain before you recognize it
I see you’ve figured all the finelines, the triggers and the timelines
keeping you alive with minimal effort while you…

live in a high this low
you’re a hi-riser

you don’t remember all the phone calls, the late nights,
the stonewalls, it could never be your fault if you could stay inside them
I see you gently disguising your altitude rising
you float like a saint but I don’t recognize you

you live in a high this low
you’re a hi-riser

you don't belong

did you notice that all of your friends had given up and settled down
did you notice at all?
and their failures were swallowed up, chewed on, and never ever said aloud
because truth don’t belong

did you notice when all of their stares turned into indifference
did you notice at all
that their faces never grew tired pretending you were not around?
because truth don’t belong

and that’s fine, you don’t belong

did they know that everything said was ever so spiteful
but so it goes, they’re gone
and you say there’s never good time for spilling our guts around
what we say don’t belong

and that’s fine, you don’t belong

sleeping alone don’t mean you’re a failure

turn on your own

you have no whisper of reason
somehow letting you know
that your lie lies changing a face
the face is changing a feel I fear
I’m letting you know that I’m letting you go

‘cause you will always turn on your own

I’ve been mistaking your treason for nameless disease
the only name you have known
but now time, time’s changing a face
the face is changing a feel I fear
I’m letting you know that I’m letting you go

‘cause you will always turn on your own

don’t be so proud, you’re hiding in a crowd
where you can be allowed all the things you’re ashamed of
so don’t doubt, I’ll never let you out
you’ll never be allowed to show up, to blow up, to bleed out
just move on

no sense in waiting

naked and reeling with our heads on the ceiling
there all night
shaking the feeling what our heads are revealing
isn’t right for now

suffering for safety in your silence
and maybe you won’t mind
take all the time you need, ‘cause life isn’t how you bleed
it’s why…so go

there is no sense in waiting for this
so let me in, let me in, you can’t escape me
there’s no sense in waiting, you’ll never escape me