brighter/still LP 2002	cathedral city there is no us isobel violet i'll believe burn the remains i miss october mp3 seven mile beach very happy with mp3 ready mp3 limbo came to senses

produced, mixed, and engineered by john chamberlin
additional production by cerulean
recorded and mixed oct 01 - jan 02 at sonic studio, altadena, ca
mastered by tom baker at precision mastering
package design by puzzlepiece
package concept by cerulean
photography by cathy cadou, karen walker, and emery shiau

there is no us

here we go, do it again
one for show and one like we feel when no one sees
when nobody else is there to please but ourselves
take your time, this is the game
i supply whatever the breezes in your mind
decided we needed, it's all plain denial
there is no us
keeping it open, hoping
idle the engine so it's screaming if we go
but i don't believe we'll ever get that far
talk all the empty upsides
even the ugliness is sweet when you don't know
it doesn't matter how you choose to say it
there is no us

isobel

there's a light on floor and those voices are fading
and we lie on the hopes that our showers of favors and smiles are pervading
there's a light on the floor
but isobel you see through
we lay out like before when our choices were endless
and the plans we delayed were just promises made and betrayed while we waited
we lay out like before
but isobel you see through
haven't we been there for you?
haven't we been there?
isobel you see through.

violet

closing her eyes, she lies
breathing in even time
silently waiting beyond the moonlight
effortlessly he slides
are you the way the violet dies?
if he could pretend, would he bend
and sleeplessness disappear?
all alone and wide awake without dreams for healing
aching melts into fear
are you the way the violet dies?
she's breathing in sighs, he cries
tracing from cheek to chin
too weak and ashamed and too close to believe in it
effortlessly he slides away
are you the way the violet dies?

i'll believe

just say i'll find you under the covers and then i'll believe

burn the remains

this one's of me and you
shining into the sun as if we knew
we would be over by now
this one's brighter still
with hands that hide our eyes
and say we'd grow far away
but i never noticed 'til now
so go where you know
it's softer and safer than i will ever know
share the blame as i burn the remains of this old flame
page after page of you
stale edges frayed and gray and fading through
they've all become shadows by now
so go where i know
it's wider and brighter than you will ever know
share the blame as i burn the remains of this old flame
when i was so afraid of the slow life
where everything is wonderful
don't let me leave my blue-eyed world behind
pages i've never read
and roses you pressed between
are flattened and crumbling
but i never noticed 'til now
so go where i know
it's deeper and warmer than we will ever know
share the blame as i burn the remains of this old flame.
i know...i know if this is true or not.

i miss october

out on a drive, out on a Sunday
i'm watching you leave your sense of time behind
would you anyway?
i wanted the chills, you wanted the gray skies,
and they'd slide by in fragile violence
a shiver of leaves and a mouthful of silence
and gone before we could feel like we did again
and i just might be safe and deny i'm sorry it's over
and it just might be braver to say that i miss October
we lay in the light, we lay in the shadows
we stared at the gold ones like they'd never change or afraid they would
and everyday since they're all repeated disasters
and they slide by uninspired
a flicker of fevers and doused-out fires
and gone before we could feel like we did again
learning to close my eyes and
remember there's something back there worth repeating
feels like i'm done deciding to fall off the end of the world.

seven mile beach

slow and sound is silent-drowned but
the purest star is never far from ground
the far-behinds, the never-wills, the never-minds
forever gone
falling down, sleep and drown
waking up under a moon
bleeding with the stab of a sunset
second days, hour years
time has slipped into the waves
i don't feel any older
why? why?
seven miles without a soul but not alone
and never gone
falling down, sleep and drown
waking up under a moon
bleeding with the stab of a sunset
second days, hour years
time has slipped into the waves
where darkness is the measure
and where nothing is the same
as when last we saw where i had been
falling down, sleep and drown
waking up under a moon
bluest i've seen in forever
second days, hour years
time has slipped into the waves
i don't feel any older

very happy with

she takes a lie with a drift in the eye like a shifting plate
she measures the words
delivers a blistered phrase
from here i can see it's all of the places we don't go
that blow the cover off another slow-burner and so far...
back up and crawl alone if you should leave it this way
still waiting for something
that you could begin someday...begin
so i should forget whatever i'm saving all this for
'cause if i breathe a breath of never it could sever and so far…
i'm very happy with you here with me
where all of everything is four-leaf clover
i'm very happy that we're not like those who'd say this like they're faking
don't be afraid if you hate what you've made of a blissful state
it will all be okay
well, that's what the voices say to me
now i should forget whatever i'm saving all this for
'cause if i breathe a breath of never it could sever and so far...
so i'll say this once and for all before a too-late ending, instead of
seeming like i'm waiting and complaining, it's too hard.

ready

high and ready to be found
maybe i decided i need this now
when i wake in a nightmare
and at least i'm finally breathing
and all of my reasons are gone and it's alright
isn't it just like we thought we'd become?
watching the favorite ones play in the sun
i'm sick of the shade and i'm aching to run
from this waiting
i'm ready to be found
maybe i decided i need this now
through a crack in the window
where the wounded started healing
i saw that my reasons were gone and it's alright
whisper the secrets i won't tell a soul
swallow the stories i don't need to know
i'm holding the gift that i wanted to hold
in this waiting
i'm ready to be found
maybe i needed this somehow
when i waited for all of those
that i thought might take me somewhere
well all of my reasons were gone.
under the sounds and lights, under the screams and sighs.
why don't the dreams come now?
why won't the dreams come now?
why don't the dreams come right away?

limbo

wave that red flag white
do all you can just to get by
save this dream, conceal
it's easier than making it real
you're never wrong when you're wearing the nightmare
you keep it on in the hoping you'll get there
just go along
and hang around like you do when you don't care
you trip along in the maybe you'll get there
just go along
tremble inside
the thought of it kills
the sight of it dies
don't misunderstand or feel in the dark
for your own hands
you're never wrong when you're wearing the nightmare
you keep it on in the hoping you'll get there
just go along
and hang around like you do when you don't care
you trip along in the maybe you'll get there
just go along and stare
stay inside the lines
stay inside and hide, only alive
peel away to find
try to scrape a side
where was your mind?
your spine?
you're never wrong when you're wearing the nightmare
you keep it on in the hoping you'll get there
and hang around like you do when you don't care
you trip along in the maybe you'll get there
just go along and stare

came to senses

you threw a line out before i could reach and i slipped outside
through a hole in the side of my mind
i was cloudless night sky
spread out dissolved into you
shivered and shaking was endless
came into senses when i caved in
when you became like a desperate decline i would ghostride down
aimlessly tumbling to nowhere and getting there faster now
is this by design? am i just hopelessly satisfied?
spread out dissolved into you
shivered and shaking was endless
came into senses when i caved in and let it fall
spread out dissolved into you
made me resign all defenses
came into senses when i caved in

all songs (c) (p) 2002 moodlight music (ascap)/four Barrel music (ascap).
lyrics used by permission. all rights reserved.